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In love but unsure of life...
What does that mean? I am in love with some one who loves me but isn't sure where his life is taking him. I understand those feelings and yet I wonder if he doesn't realize he sin't alone in things. He is wonderful and stupid at times. I don't always have the words or the strength to let him know that I would fight for him if he'd let me.
It is hard for me when I see things I can't share with him. I understand but sometimes the "Cinderelle Syndrome" gets in the way. He has a friend who is cool but some days it is hard for me to be around them. I am afraid that I am missing some thing because of my past experiences where I thought "That could/ would never happen." I trust him and I want to let go but the voices in my head don't always listen to my heart and I get emotional and crazy for lack of a better word. I know I can't be all things to him, I just want to still know that he wants to come home and share the things he has learned from others.
I realize that I was really hurt last time I posted and I wasn't trying to hurt any one but just expressing how I Felt at that exact moment. I was angery and I forget sometimes that others can read this. I am sorry if I caused you pain(you know who you are) and I just was putting down my pain. It is my journal. I can express myself without having to wonder if I am going to get crushed because I am feeling crushed myself.
So there you go for this night....
It is hard for me when I see things I can't share with him. I understand but sometimes the "Cinderelle Syndrome" gets in the way. He has a friend who is cool but some days it is hard for me to be around them. I am afraid that I am missing some thing because of my past experiences where I thought "That could/ would never happen." I trust him and I want to let go but the voices in my head don't always listen to my heart and I get emotional and crazy for lack of a better word. I know I can't be all things to him, I just want to still know that he wants to come home and share the things he has learned from others.
I realize that I was really hurt last time I posted and I wasn't trying to hurt any one but just expressing how I Felt at that exact moment. I was angery and I forget sometimes that others can read this. I am sorry if I caused you pain(you know who you are) and I just was putting down my pain. It is my journal. I can express myself without having to wonder if I am going to get crushed because I am feeling crushed myself.
So there you go for this night....