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SO it is 1 more day til Con. I am busier than ever. I can't believe it. I am also feeling a little ill. Not good. I am fighting it and should be fine by Friday. *crosses fingers*
Life is okay. Brian is coming to visit in April. I have been so busy I haven't been keeping as good of touch as I should. I hope he understands. Life is kind of like that. I will be heading off to bed in a minute.
I am wondering what is it all about some days. Friends are having their hearts broken, others are just not sure which way is up, some want to be tamed and caressed, others dominated and tied up. Me? I am kinda in between all of these things. It really depends on the day and the time. And I think the person in question. I mean if I asked I know there is a guy who would gladly do all of this, there is another who would do none of it and then there is one who has no idea I think he's all that, but that is okay. I am kind of looking at all perspectives and not willing to chose just one at the moment. I have been broken and am healing nicely, with a few bumps on the way up, but I don't know exactly what I want and I am told that is okay. I do know that there is so much in the world to see, I want to get out there and see it again. I mean by the time I was 15 I had been to 3 continents, and seen more than most people I know. I would love to share all that with someone special. I would love to see Italy again. I would love to go to where I used to live and see how it has changed. I would love to go back to Morocco and see the market again as an adult. So much to do and see and yet no time to do it. I want to run around NYC and go to the Met. (I am sure I can do that again with family living so close to there), but I want to go with a special some one, you know. Then I want to turn around and go hang out at the local pub or whatever with my friends. I don't need fancy clubs, just cosmos to drink if I am going to drink. I am just having a hormonal issue I guess. Okay enough. Off to bed and sleep and back to work in the AM. Time to rest so I can be a grown up and work to have fun on the weekend.
If you actually read that, you must really want to know or you are as silly as I am. If you did, thanks! Now have a great weekend! A P-Con Update will happen some time soon as there is free internet at the hotel!
Life is okay. Brian is coming to visit in April. I have been so busy I haven't been keeping as good of touch as I should. I hope he understands. Life is kind of like that. I will be heading off to bed in a minute.
I am wondering what is it all about some days. Friends are having their hearts broken, others are just not sure which way is up, some want to be tamed and caressed, others dominated and tied up. Me? I am kinda in between all of these things. It really depends on the day and the time. And I think the person in question. I mean if I asked I know there is a guy who would gladly do all of this, there is another who would do none of it and then there is one who has no idea I think he's all that, but that is okay. I am kind of looking at all perspectives and not willing to chose just one at the moment. I have been broken and am healing nicely, with a few bumps on the way up, but I don't know exactly what I want and I am told that is okay. I do know that there is so much in the world to see, I want to get out there and see it again. I mean by the time I was 15 I had been to 3 continents, and seen more than most people I know. I would love to share all that with someone special. I would love to see Italy again. I would love to go to where I used to live and see how it has changed. I would love to go back to Morocco and see the market again as an adult. So much to do and see and yet no time to do it. I want to run around NYC and go to the Met. (I am sure I can do that again with family living so close to there), but I want to go with a special some one, you know. Then I want to turn around and go hang out at the local pub or whatever with my friends. I don't need fancy clubs, just cosmos to drink if I am going to drink. I am just having a hormonal issue I guess. Okay enough. Off to bed and sleep and back to work in the AM. Time to rest so I can be a grown up and work to have fun on the weekend.
If you actually read that, you must really want to know or you are as silly as I am. If you did, thanks! Now have a great weekend! A P-Con Update will happen some time soon as there is free internet at the hotel!
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Date: 2005-02-17 07:52 am (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2005-02-17 08:00 am (UTC)From:and am sure you can guess where my interested lie...
we should probably talk a little.
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Date: 2005-02-17 08:02 am (UTC)From:and I know. Not looking to break any thing or any one.
We will chat may be this weekend, definatley this coming week.
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Date: 2005-02-17 05:27 pm (UTC)From:It's amazing how everything is okay as a child, because there is Someone Watching Out For Us. (booming parental voice and all). but as we grow, the guidance goes away, and we are left floundering about, trying to figure out which way is up. it is our way to learn and grow, and that the experiences we cherish from childhood we tend to yearn for in adulthood.
I think it's better to be open and willing to experience a variety of things, (caress or tied down or pampered or ignored or pursuing a dream or idling in a state of contentedness) than it is to choose anyone thing and chase it down doggedly... why? because if you're focused on one target, then you tend to miss the other details around you.
best.
so cool
Date: 2005-02-17 09:29 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2005-02-18 08:05 am (UTC)From:And yes, as children we are given guidance and carefully watched so we don't get lost. But as we grow, we are expected to know what comes next. I just don't want to be like the person my folks said I HAD to be. I am still out there exploring my world. There are way to many choices to say "Okay all done!" at the moment. I have one or two I would love to enjoy but I am not sitting around expecting any thing. It is easier that way. And if you don't look around, you just might miss something, you know.