Lost in time and space....

[rosered32]

Yeah I know a bad Rocky horror line or a cool old TV show... but no it is my life. I am in limbo because the man I love doesn't know what he is doing with his life. I have spent the last 3year with this person and I thought we were going to move in to the getting married phase because at Christmas time while shopping with his dad he said" May be we should start looking at rings." which to me means he loves me enough that I can feel safe and okay with him not having a serious job and may be going to schoola and that all my hopes are not in vain. Then one day he decides that he doesn't ever want to get married to any one. Then he may leave if my roomate and I who live with him (who both work regular 40 hour a week jobs) aren't pulling our weight around the house and we have 6 months or he is moving out. As for me, there is more he wants out of our relarionship but he really hasn't said what it is exactly only that I am not doing it. I realize that I am "not walking next to him" but I used to "walk" 40ft behind him and he didn't notice. Now I have come along way from how I was. I still am not "next" to him but I am a few steps now. I am trying and I can't change as fast as it seems he wants. I haven't asked much of him but may be that is the problem. May be that is why he has discoved this friend who makes him feel that he isn't the only person who read Skaespeare at 7 and such. I do know that he is a chamealon when it comes to people. He is very intelligent but it seems that when a subject comes up he always has something to say about it. Which is why he is a great friend and mentor and can inspire so may people. Still with this friend he seems to forget that there is more to a life then discussing movies and books and such. Yes these are important, but so is working 40 hours to pay bills and rent and food and the realities of life. I may not know all about the philosiphers of the world but I can tell you that a child's personality is formed by age 7 and that most kids liked Shrek and Spy Kids, as I am a teacher. That used to be okay and now who knows...

more later....thank you booda....

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Ayup!

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Welcome to the world of men, my dear.

One time I'm playing around with his sister (climbing under her hoop at Southern Faire) and he says "Watch it, that may be your sister-in-law one day," next moment he leaves me because he "wants to be alone."

Life-long commitment scares 99.9% of men. I propose that the world's women go lesbian. ::grin::