Grief

[rosered32]

There are times when I think I can't express my grief as fully as I am feeling it as I was not as close to the ones who have gone as others were. That the person we are all mourning touched some one else's life more than mine so how can I be so sad. I am feeling like I can't post anything as I was not super close and it feels hypocritical. And Yet I am sad as i knew this person too. They were a great presences even if we were not close. They did so much for their community and they were a voice I was so glad to hear at events on the radio as we all worked.

Yes Anthony Bourdain was awesome and influential to many i know, but Darrin was in my family even if we were both more distant cousins than siblings. He was from when I was super shy and had a small group of friends and then came back in my world when I joined CAT. He was the voice of reason for many years and it was a joy to see him at con even if he was just visiting. His deep voice was always soothing and his laugh infectious. I will miss him and I will mourn the times we didn't know each other when we could have.

I cry every time I read a post about how he touched folks lives and all he did in the community. He was an amazing man and I wish I had known him better.

Comments

[karlht]

I am so sorry for your loss, and for the loss to his community.

[rosered32]

It is hard to express my sadness when so many others who knew him longer or better are hurting.

I can support them but I feel fake posting about me in those other places.

So I will post here.