Okay a real update.

[rosered32]

This past weekend I moved into my new apartment. I now live by myself in a nice cozy one bedroom apartment. I love it but it was a hard decision to make. I left my relationship of 5 years to be on my own. I truly cared for him, but I needed more. Most of my friends say that they knew it was coming. I just wish it didn't hurt so much. I know it is for the best and we shall be friends, but it still hurts.

I am however looking toward the future as much as possible so I don't crumble in the past. I want to travel and may be I will be able to save up and do more of that. I have an open invite to go with a friend to England, but I don't know if I want to travel with her. I want to go back to Italy and Germany. I want to go see more plays. I hope to make new friends as well. Not to say I don't have great friends currently, I just want more(Greedy I know).

I am really tired as I have not gotten used to my new schedule of getting up early to be at work on time. I now live 30 minutes away when I used to live 10 minutes away. Doesn't sound like much, but trust me it is. I may also be looking for a new job, we shall see.

I am getting ready to go to Italian Faire this weekend. I kind of don't want to go as I have so much to do at home, but I really wanna go hang out with all the other groups who will be there as my group is not going in full force. I really want to meet more people and make more inter guild connections.

I am ready to go see my dad as well. I can't as he lives in NJ and I am in CA. I also miss my mom and dad who raised me. They would not believe me, but I miss them more than I can say right now. I am 34 and I feel so lost some days. I know I am a grown woman and such, but some time I just want to hug my mom. Silly I know, but it is what I want right now more than I can say.

I am excited about meeting new people though(translate MEN), but I want to not be too stressed about all that. I want to have fun. I want to be silly. I don't know what else right now.

Well more quizzes coming soon.... What can I say, they are fun.

Comments

[magicmarmot.livejournal.com]

It takes courage to leave a relationship that isn't working. I'm glad that it was a good decision for you, and that things are going well.

[spiritofthewolf.livejournal.com]

Good for you making a move. I believe you'll do just fine. And everyone needs a hug now and then, nothing silly about that.

[catvalente.livejournal.com]

Always here if you need to talk, Sally. I'm proud of you.

[cuddlycthulhu.livejournal.com]

*hug* I won't be going to faire this weekend as one more weekend running around would probably do me in. Thanks for SLO, it was great getting to see you and hopefully I'll be able to see you again soon.

-Ren

Hi hun

[thesandywitch.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to send you my love and a hug.

Inquiring minds want to know...

[coherent.livejournal.com]

Needed more... what? :)

[loneromeo.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're happy, I totally understand about that 20 minutes.
Keep an eye on meg for me this weekend :-P, she could use a lady to converse with, most the ladies can be a tad intimidating to someone her age.

Re: Inquiring minds want to know...

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

More committement, more solid plans, more time for just us. It is more complex than that, but it is a bit of the issues. But it doesn't matter now. We are going to be friends and so those issues aren't important any more.

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the encouragment. It was a very difficult decision to make. Now it is just moving forward.

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It is nice to know that LJ friends can make you smile even when you have never met (hopefully that could change.)

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Hope the book sales and blogs are going well. I have a book for you to read. Can you email me your address? Thanks.

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

You aren't going? Wait a minute....

Just kidding, I will do my best to keep on eye on her.

Re: Inquiring minds want to know...

[coherent.livejournal.com]

I've never seen "being friends" work out that well. Let me know how it goes.

[catvalente.livejournal.com]

I can put it in the comments, it's a PO box.

Bethany Thomas
PSC 473 Box 2421
FPO AP 96349-2421

Re: Inquiring minds want to know...

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Being friends is the best bet as we still hang out with a bunch of the same people. And if we can't be friends well we shall see what comes next.

[ladynikita29.livejournal.com]

hey doll...these changes are always difficult, but they are growing experiences. i know that by just realizing you need more, you have learned. congrats on the new place, and enjoy taking the time to be just you. :)~

[l1vestrong.livejournal.com]

Hey, I know you don't know me.... but I wish you the best of luck in your new place. Change is the hardest thing in this world to get used to.. but with sometime all will workout for the best. Put the past in the trash and the present on the desk-- just so you have something successful to look forward to everytime you take a seat :)

I know it will all work out.

*hugs*

Rob

[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Thanks Rob. That is one of the things about LJ I really like. You may not know some one, but you can meet all kinds of people and give them some good support and let them know they aren't alone in the world. There are other people out there experiencing similar stuff.

[l1vestrong.livejournal.com]

That is one of the things I really like as well... you can be there for a person that thinks "hey I'm alone in this world"... Day after day more and more people get online and order things, give support and just plain ol' chat. It's like a ball of motivation across the world because it brings us all together. I love it.

And LJ! I love it so much.

You get to bump into nice people as yourself, who don't mind random comments and even will reply.

*hugs*

Rob