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I forgot because life got in the way...
Jun. 29th, 2018 12:24 pmSharing this post from 2005-June 27:
So I just realized that DJ passed on 15 years ago today.
I am home as I just didn't feel well and then I sat down to check on a friend's LJ post and send her hugs, when it hit me. I know that I am in a different place than I was 15 years ago. I have been married and divorced, had another serious relationship, graduated college(where we met), joined a great group of people who love to camp in silly clothes, and have some wonderful friends and memories. I am not the same person in some ways that I was then. I have made it through the "Interesting Years" to quote Drew.
I am 35 and looking towards my future. I have a job that is rewarding and so not what I thought I would be doing oh so long ago. I live on my own and am sort of self sufficiant(I really have to say CA is expensive!). I have met my bio dad and we have a great relationship. My mom and I seem to understand each other and my dad who raised me and I seem to be able to talk more than we ever did.
I just can't believe how life has changed. I have been through so much and learned so much. I know some of my friends are going through some rough spots right now and I can say, "This will make you stronger." Everyone has challenges they must get through and I am fortunate to have friends and family who were there for me when I needed them most. I appreciate my very good fortune. I know that life is about choices and I am the one I effect the most. No one can make me happy but me. And that is what I try to do. No one else can read my mind, I have to be the one to say what is going on. No one has the answers but me. Sure others can help to make me happy or sad, but in the end it is my choice whether to suffer or not.(Sage, that homily was spot on!)
I miss DJ but it was not meant to be. God had other plans for him. But some times I wish I could just tell him all that has happened since that aweful night.
It is funny how life just moves on and we let go of the hurt and and it hurts less as we grow and change.
Cheer for a new day and joy for the sunrise. Now I will go back to "looking for baggage that goes with mine!"
So I just realized that DJ passed on 15 years ago today.
I am home as I just didn't feel well and then I sat down to check on a friend's LJ post and send her hugs, when it hit me. I know that I am in a different place than I was 15 years ago. I have been married and divorced, had another serious relationship, graduated college(where we met), joined a great group of people who love to camp in silly clothes, and have some wonderful friends and memories. I am not the same person in some ways that I was then. I have made it through the "Interesting Years" to quote Drew.
I am 35 and looking towards my future. I have a job that is rewarding and so not what I thought I would be doing oh so long ago. I live on my own and am sort of self sufficiant(I really have to say CA is expensive!). I have met my bio dad and we have a great relationship. My mom and I seem to understand each other and my dad who raised me and I seem to be able to talk more than we ever did.
I just can't believe how life has changed. I have been through so much and learned so much. I know some of my friends are going through some rough spots right now and I can say, "This will make you stronger." Everyone has challenges they must get through and I am fortunate to have friends and family who were there for me when I needed them most. I appreciate my very good fortune. I know that life is about choices and I am the one I effect the most. No one can make me happy but me. And that is what I try to do. No one else can read my mind, I have to be the one to say what is going on. No one has the answers but me. Sure others can help to make me happy or sad, but in the end it is my choice whether to suffer or not.(Sage, that homily was spot on!)
I miss DJ but it was not meant to be. God had other plans for him. But some times I wish I could just tell him all that has happened since that aweful night.
It is funny how life just moves on and we let go of the hurt and and it hurts less as we grow and change.
Cheer for a new day and joy for the sunrise. Now I will go back to "looking for baggage that goes with mine!"
