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[rosered32]

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So this says I am blue. Not to surprising at the moment. I am not in one location for work, I have no car and I am tired of life as it stands. I feel like people in my life who I trust are just hanging around because they aren't sure what else they can do. I need to find out where I fit in with the future plans of my mate and I, and I am not sure I have enough patience to wait for any thing. I feel like the people around me want me around only to turn my caring into reasons to either act like I am playing the part of their mother or like I was good enough until they knew more people and everything I have ever said was turned into an attack. I am avoiding people so there is no mistaking that I will not be blamed as part of their issues and it hurts. I never mean harm and yet of course I say the wrong thing or I say it the wrong way and I am the bad person. I can't even talk to one of my former friend's for fear they will either make a joke about it or get mad at me for asking a question. I just don't understand people. I really need to move away and start over or something. I just am feeling like I can't do any thing right. I know thyat isn't true, I just feel that way. I am living for faire right now and that isn't the best idea. I need more in life than that. I just wish I knew what I was working towards and why. I need to reevaluate things. I know that I can do anything I just don't know what it is I want to do any more. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good night Gracie....

Comments

[kailara.livejournal.com]

Hey there,

sorry things are going so hard right now. I agree that living for Faire is not the best idea, since that just seems to beg drama to hit you in the head.

I hope you have a chance to work things out relationship wise. I can't really say much there that isn't kind of high on the "Well DUH" meter.

As for the friends issues, I have a suspicion about who you might be refering to (or at least one of them). You should try talking to them, despite the concerns. Try to explain what you wrote here, and maybe find out what's going on.

If I'm right about who is at issue, I think you could get somewhere, but you'd have to make a really strong effort to stay calm and not let anything get to you. I know that sounds both "well Duh" and a little patronizing - I swear it's not meant that way. Purely advisory. take it or leave it as you will....

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[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Thanks... I appreciate your input. The person I was refering to won't talk to me at all so it isn't really going to happen. They are mad at something I said and took in a way I didn't mean, so there you go.

Again thanks...
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