rosered32 | Silly survey and junk......

© What's your Inner Goddess Color?? © Jen

So this says I am blue. Not to surprising at the moment. I am not in one location for work, I have no car and I am tired of life as it stands. I feel like people in my life who I trust are just hanging around because they aren't sure what else they can do. I need to find out where I fit in with the future plans of my mate and I, and I am not sure I have enough patience to wait for any thing. I feel like the people around me want me around only to turn my caring into reasons to either act like I am playing the part of their mother or like I was good enough until they knew more people and everything I have ever said was turned into an attack. I am avoiding people so there is no mistaking that I will not be blamed as part of their issues and it hurts. I never mean harm and yet of course I say the wrong thing or I say it the wrong way and I am the bad person. I can't even talk to one of my former friend's for fear they will either make a joke about it or get mad at me for asking a question. I just don't understand people. I really need to move away and start over or something. I just am feeling like I can't do any thing right. I know thyat isn't true, I just feel that way. I am living for faire right now and that isn't the best idea. I need more in life than that. I just wish I knew what I was working towards and why. I need to reevaluate things. I know that I can do anything I just don't know what it is I want to do any more. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good night Gracie....