Stuff.... Crap....Don't read it's just me ranting.....

[rosered32]

So I am at a friend's house and I find a box that looks familiar. I ask where she got it and she says it isn't hers. Then the rush of who's it is hits me and I feel like crying and screaming and drowning all at the same time. Why is it that some one who really hasn't been a big part of my life can hurt me without even caring. It isn't like we dated or something. It is just that I felt we were closer than we obviously were. I just wish I hadn't put so much in too this friendship, when all it has done is make me upset. Other friends have stated not to stress, children do childish things. It is just that I saw so much of my brother in this person that it hurts to realize that something said at 3 am after a long week and me being very tired, is taken as my overall opinion about life, the universe, and everything.(I know I forgot the fish!) It just bugs some days. I am sorry that some dumb thing I said is so life altering that friendships must end but then again cute redheads are better than chunky brunettes any day ( being one I can say that.) It just hurts and I need to let go. I haven't got that down yet. I will soon I hope! Thanks for wasting your time reading this if you did....

Back to your regularly scheduled faire nut post.....

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[kailara.livejournal.com]

I'd really like to post something comforting, but there's not a lot I can say that wouldn't either be inappropriate, inconsiderate, or useful - so I'm going to stick to this...

I really don't think it's the red hair. I could give you a lot of things that I think it is (or that I know it is) but I can't do that here and I don't think you'd want to hear it anyhow. But if you need to talk...hunt me down. I'll talk...at least within the bounds that confidences will allow.

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[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Hi... I was just ranting... I know it isn't the red hair. I know it is the person, I was just babbling at that point. You are a great friend to him. I am more than well aware of that. I was ranting. I was more upset about the acting like I don't exist and that now he is turning to a new person to ramble about how horrid his family is to him, and such. I realize that you aren't the issue so please understand I have no problem with you being the new comfort person. I was just frustrated with him. I still am and I'll get over it. I just wish he'd say something verses act like I am invisible. I went out of my way to make sure things went smoothly for him as far as other aspects of life like helping out financially and in guild. Now I am treated like slime and I don't like it. I am also told this is typical but I don't know by whom as it was an annonymous post .... Sorry if you felt I was picking on you. It was not intentional.

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[rosered32.livejournal.com]

Hi... I was just ranting... I know it isn't the red hair. I know it is the person, I was just babbling at that point. You are a great friend to him. I am more than well aware of that. I was ranting. I was more upset about the acting like I don't exist and that now he is turning to a new person to ramble about how horrid his family is to him, and such. I realize that you aren't the issue so please understand I have no problem with you being the new comfort person. I was just frustrated with him. I still am and I'll get over it. I just wish he'd say something verses act like I am invisible. I went out of my way to make sure things went smoothly for him as far as other aspects of life like helping out financially and in guild. Now I am treated like slime and I don't like it. I am also told this is typical but I don't know by whom as it was an annonymous post .... Sorry if you felt I was picking on you. It was not intentional. And I appricate the fact that you want to talk to me but it isn't about you. Thanks though....

[kailara.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad it isn't about me, because I really don't want to be stuck in the middle. Too much like old high school bullshit that I didn't enjoy to begin with...

I'm sorry he's been avoiding you, and I know a lot of people have hit him with "you really ought to talk to her" - but I think you're going to be better off if you try to talk to him. Pin him in a corner, send an email, call him, whatever...I'm pretty sure that he'll talk to you, but you're going to have to initiate.

I just hope you two can work it out, even if you're never as close as you were. I hate seeing two people so torn up over something...